The Bucket List

Have you seen it? I enjoyed it.

Things to do before you "kick the bucket." We all have one, whether you have it written down or not. We all say, "before I die..." How many people actually cross off everything on their list, well aside from Morgan Freeman? After reading blogs, magazines, books, talking to people, etc, I've become jealous. There are people out there that are doing such neat things. My list consists of things such as:

• beating a certain friend at a tube war
• finding all the hidden Mickeys at Disneyland
• doing a flip (front or back)
• getting my heart broken [yes, I know, I sound nuts. But, I figure if I get my heart broken, that means I was able to care enough about someone, right? I'm not afraid of getting oober depressed over such a thing or never finding another "one." Also, I want to go through something like that just so if/when I have kids, I can sympathise with them if they go through such an experience. That's my thinking of the whole situation, as skewed as it may be.]
• etc...

However, next to those (lame-to-some) bullet points, I also want to:

• go to some third world country, get stinky and dirty from not being able to shower everyday, sleep on dirt floors, participate in some form of service (build an orphanage, dig wells, etc), and have an incredible experience.
• backpack through Europe and all that implies
• regain my Spanish fluency (yes, at one point in my life I was completely fluent in... "you know.. the language of love." Actually, español. I would even dream in it. Nuts, I know.)
• become scuba dive certified
• etc...

The point is not what is on your list. The point is that you accomplish what you want to accomplish. When I think of these things I get giddy, but then I think about it more and realize how hard it would be to actually cross these things off. All the planning and saving it requires is huge. A few of my things are just spur-of-the-moment things which is also kind of stressful. But, this life is for living right? I want to live. I don't want to just sit and do nothing. Sometimes I wish I could just drop out of school and just go where the wind blows me, how exciting does that sound? 
I was talking to my sister the other day about how there are so many things I want to do, and how I get a little discouraged when I think of them because in my mind, any of the things on my list need to get done right now and if I don't do them right now, it'll never happen. I tend to forget that I am (nearly) nineteen and still have X amount of years left and that there is plenty of time to get everything done. My sister told me that if I want to do something, I should do it. There are so many opportunities out there, I just have to not be lazy and search them out and follow through. I just got giddy again. I'm excited for what my future has in store. I'm excited to start crossing things off.